Achieving my First Goal
I knew right from the beginning what my first goal would be, getting back into a size 12. I had always hovered around the size 14/16 mark and although my body shape hid it well I didn’t enjoy being this size.
On too many occasions I remember standing in front of the mirror, tugging at my tops trying to cover up the lumps and bumps that protruded from my belly or hung out over my ‘muffin top’, a part of me thought that this was my ‘natural size’ and that I would be this size forever as I never really seemed to get much bigger or smaller.
The last time I could remember being a comfortable size 12 would have been when I was going to a friends prom in 2001, I remember my brother being convinced that I had an eating disorder, he would check the bins for evidence of uneaten food and listen out for me being sick in the bathroom.
Looking back at some of the photos I can kind of understand where he was coming from, previous to this I had always been a ‘solid’ girl, not particularly overweight but just very sturdy, and certainly not skinny.
Being a teenager I remember that image seemed so important at school and although I lost a lot of weight in a short amount of time it was basically through poor diet.
Years later and I still have my prom dresses, not for the fact that I ever thought I would get back into them again but because my incredibly talented Nana made them for me and they are just far too special to ever part with.
Whilst hunting around in the loft for some toys for Ava I came across a big bundle of my old prom dresses, and out of curiosity wondered if some of them might actually fit me… I do recall trying to get into them when I lost a little bit of weight some time ago but I can distinctly remember ending up in a miserable mess on the floor with tear soaked eyes as I could barely get them over my hips, let alone get anywhere near fastening the zips!
So I tried on my dress… 12 years later;
Looking at the comparison photos I would like to think that I look much healthier and that I even have a better shape to my body in the current photo.
Since starting my journey I have lost 18.6 kg of weight, (41 lbs) and I can honestly say that I like to see my reflection in the mirror, something I hated to see previous to my transformation. It’s such a fantastic feeling knowing that I can grab anything from my wardrobe and know that when I put it on I won’t be pulling at it or trying to stretch it to cover areas that I’m self conscious about.
Currently, I’m not trying to lose weight, all I’m aiming for is a toned, healthy body and in doing so I am well on the way to being a size 10. I like to think that I am proof that a healthy diet and regular exercise will eventually lead to a fit, healthy and extremely happy individual!
Taking on this transformation has sometimes felt like a long and exhausting road, but seeing the changes in my body as I near the end of the first year of my journey is all the motivation I need to keep me on track.
All I can say is that I am so incredibly pleased and proud with what I have achieved so far, I can’t ever imagine going back to how I was and I look forward to continuing my transformation and inspiring others to do the same.