First things first I want to start off by saying a huge congratulations to all the girls and to anyone who competes, as people often remind me, it takes guts and determination to get up on that stage and do what we did, plenty of people can talk the talk, but when it really comes down to it how many of them have the balls to do what we just have?
Well what can I say… other than wow, what an incredible day!
It’s taken me more than a few days to recover from my first show and find the time to write about it but one thing was for sure, I was either going to love it or hate it on stage, and it turns out that I loved it!
The day started off early and we went over to our friends place to see Beckie, my personal ‘fluffer’ so she could work her magic on getting my hair, makeup and another coat of tan show ready.
At this point I was only eating rice cakes with peanut butter and drinking 2oz of water every hour and man was I hungry! I thought I would be far too nervous to eat anything but it seemed I was still in the excited phase as any sign of nervousness was non-existent.
Once Beckie had finished making me gorgeous I looked in the mirror and could barely recognise myself, I felt amazing! We loaded the car up and head off to the show which was roughly an hours drive away. En route to the venue I had a call from my coach to see how I was getting on, I was still crazy excited so told him I was feeling great, he would be one of the judges at the show so as far as I was aware I wouldn’t get much chance to speak to him from that point on.
When we arrived I was sent to check in… I walked through the doors to the main room and saw the stage… then I think my heart may have stopped for a second, there they were, the nerves! Things suddenly became very real. I handed over my routine music and collected my number; I spotted my coach and gave him a quick thumbs up before heading off.
There was a lot of waiting around before it was my time to go and get organised and I couldn’t help but try and scout out the competition, the biggest give away was the tan, if someone looked like they had been dipped in creosote then you could be pretty sure they were competing. I had noticed on the sign in sheet that there were 12 girls in my category but hadn’t seen any of them whilst we were waiting.
I was fortunate enough to have the pleasure of meeting Kelley, a fellow Team Pscarb member who I had spoken with on-line regularly in the run up to the show. Kelley has competed more than a few times before; she has a fantastic past record and looks phenomenal too! Kelley took me under her wing and really looked after me, I can’t thank her enough as I wouldn’t have had the faintest idea what I should be doing backstage if it weren’t for her help!
Eventually the time came for us to go backstage and to start getting ready. The dressing room was packed with bags, makeup, clothes, dumbbells, glitter spray and half naked women, you would probably think that it would be quite a vicious environment but it was easy enough to catch eyes and smile at everyone, a few smiles later and I was a little more relaxed.
I got changed into my suit and my wonderful fluffer slapped on another layer of tan followed by a final coat of glaze. People I had never met before were so helpful, they gave us advice on applying the tan, gave me mini pep talks when I was looking nervous and helped our when it came to pumping up.
When it was almost time to get on stage it meant the ‘bikini bite’ was due to make its appearance. This is as blatant as it sounds, a glue stick that you apply to your skin and suit to permanently stick it into place. I went for my last loo stop before it was sticking time… then as soon as I was stuck in place of course desperate for the loo again, brilliant! I guess the nerves were working overtime at this point but I managed to ignore it as sure enough my attention was suddenly on something different… the door opened and a 15 minute call came in… ah crap, it was nearly time!
The 5 minute call came not long after and we all lined up backstage according to our number, I felt like I was back at school, giggling with the other girls about how excited we were and equally how terrified we felt, asking each other if it was our first show or not. The men came offstage and up the stairs we went.
Smile, smile, don’t trip, look confident, smile… was all l can remember going around and around in my head. We followed eachother into the spotlight and I frantically tried to remember my relaxed pose, the only good thing was that the stage lights were so bright I could barely see anyone passed the judges table, I could however hear them!
I was trying to smile as big and as naturally as possible but my actual smile was shaking, physically trembling! It felt like we were stood up there for a lifetime, eventually we were led off the stage to then come back one by one to perform our 90 second routines.
I was number 5 in the line-up so had the chance to watch a couple of routines before I went and did mine, each girl looked so confident and graceful and so happy when they came off stage, before I knew it, it was my turn…
I hid behind the curtain waiting for my music to start, then in bare feet I walked back onto the stage, from the first step I took in front of the crowd my I felt like I was in a dream, not in a bad way, but in an oddly relaxed yet excited way. All I could hear were screams and shouts from the audience. I’m really not sure how great my routine was in the end but I actually don’t care, I felt incredible being on stage and that’s all I had aimed for, a chance to enjoy showing off all my hard work.
When we had all performed our routine we put our heels back on and headed back out to do our comparisons, my smile was still glued to my face despite frantically trying to remember how I had to stand for each pose. I remember teetering a little in my shoes on the side poses but all in all I was happy that I managed to hold them for as long as needed.
I was chosen for two callouts which as far as I am aware doesn’t really give any inkling into how well you might, or might not be doing. But each time I ran through my check-list for the pose we were told to perform. Feet, legs straight, bum out, tummy in, chest high, shoulders, twist, smile – bing!
Once we were all done we were led off stage and that was it… the judging was over, no matter what we did from this point on it would make no impact whatsoever… so off for a burger and chips we went!
A couple of hours later we came back for the evening show, for this show we would do our routines, have a pose down and the placings would be handed out.
The pose down was great, it was actually the part I was most worried about, but from watching other shows I knew straight away that I wanted to jump down from the main stage and pose at the front. I’d been eyeing up the height of the step all day and was a little panicky that it might be too far to get down onto, especially with heels on!
Out of the corner of my eye I saw a couple of others make a move for the lower stage and that was it, I went to join them too! Getting back up on stage was fun… not very elegant but these strong legs of mine just about managed it!
Back in our places and it was time for the winners to be announced. The first six would receive invites with the top 3 receiving trophies and invites to Nationals. The suspense was awful, the hardest thing was listening to the compare announcing names, I just couldn’t make out anything he was saying but I’m putting that down to my nerves.
The first three names were called… nope, not my name… then the next three… nope, still not my name! I won’t deny that I am a little gutted, of course I am. But I can quite honestly say that I had such an incredible day regardless of placing or not it was fantastic, and has certainly given me the drive to work harder, dig deeper and come back better next time!
I came in 8th place overall and now that I look at my comparison photos I can see that I really don’t have anything to be unhappy about!
Congratulations again to all the girls that day, I’ve met some wonderful people from the show and can’t wait to catch up with them in the next one! x
Thank you to Allan Jones for coming along and taking such amazing photos!